Nexplanon - One Week Later
Healed up great! just a lil red dot and some redness where I removed the bandages.
Okay so I've officially had Nexplanon for one week and most of my symptoms have subsided, I'm one of the lucky ones who didn't bleed for a month or go on crazy binge eating romps, but I did get lots of cramps before and I have evened out officially. This is day 2.5 of absolutely no painful or mood-swingy symptoms.
Except that when these hormones being injected into my body make me feel very...carnalhunger in the sense of hunger and emotion. Basic needs are at the forefront of my mind constantly and emotion comes second, if at all.
I noticed this when I was on the pill too but with progesterone based hormones and birth control I tend to fizzle out emotionally. What I mean by that is that I start literally not caring about anything. Sounds great right? Well yes and no. It's good that I stop obsessing and being paranoid about things or trying to make people like me, but at the same time I think I become exceedingly heartless. Today I got into an argument with my mother and father and while I was yelled at screamed at, I just stared at them and shrugged because I didn't feel sad or upset or anything about it, I did not feel anything...except mild irritation that I was being inconvenienced on my way to the sewing machine. I know they noticed because my mother kept getting angrier at the lack of a response. Not only did I not care, but in a way, I kind of felt good about it because I was so...just not...phased by it.
Another "carnal" symptom is aggression. I don't necessarily feel angry ever, but I do feel irritated and annoyed. But these SLIGHT emotions, even neutral ones like contentment or apathy, physically get me wanting to fight. I have exercised to try to get this itching feeling away. Again, it's not really when I'm angry. Even when I'm perfectly content and happy, I tend to still want to get violent with something, like a punching bag. -___- It's perfect for exercise but it makes me feel ansty on occasion.
The third and last one, is the unyielding need for red meat. Everyday, not matter what meal, I search my house for some form of beef or pork (not so much poultry). I have my meat exceedingly rare now and I almost feel like I'm going insane if I don't eat it when I feel cravings for it.
Basic needs also I guess count libido which has tremendously spiked since the implant but it's not something I need to talk about right now because that aspect of my life I'm not worried about.
These are the three persistent symptoms I've personally experienced. The only ones I'm worried about is the lack of care and the aggression because I know that right now I could probably beat someone up and not feel guilt and be thrown in prison and just not give a shit about it at all. It's almost kind of scary. I'm very lucky that I still feel positive emotions very well. It's actually pretty miraculous. All happy with no sadness/anxious feelings and only downside is mild irritation and the physical restlessness, which is easily cured through 20 minutes on the treadmill.
Anyway last night Lou picked me up from work and I was very excited because it had been about a week since I had seen him last. I think it was a little weird for me because I always feel weird after not seeing someone for a while. But this was a good visit. I was very, very. VERY tired when I saw him so I wasn't as active or talkative as he hoped probably and was more caught up with animal crossing and trigun than getting up and doing things. Sorry Lou :(
I talked to his roommates some and Steve was avidly playing GTA.
Lou was very kind to me despite me being a pain in the ass. We were very lazy that day. Because I was so exhausted I think I was very unresponsive and short tempered and I apologize for that.
After a while, maybe around midnight, we were hanging out with all of his roommates on his couch and I fell asleep on his lap and he woke me up saying he'd let me nap a bit. Since I had to be home because he had class, I asked for him to set the alarm in case he fell asleep too, which I knew he would. He said he'd be fine and wasn't tired but set the alarm for 2-2:30am.
CUE WAKING UP AT 4AM IN A PANIC. He probably had fallen asleep immediately after me and was literally the most difficult person to wake up.
Lou before I left making sad faces and putting on a swaggy pea coat.
(personally I think his shoulders are getting too big for this jacket now that he's bulked up quite a bit since I met him from upper body workouts but thats just my opinion.)
He had rearranged his room, putting his bed against the wall which made me so happy because there was so much floor space and whenever I slept there I could be squished between him and the wall and I like compact space when I sleep, wall on one side, radiating body heat on the opposite side.
e left and I was very sad to see him go. But pumped he'll be with me for the fall festival this Saturday!! Gonna get so much apple cider and go on the ferris wheel like 80 times.
Today was cleanup day...........
We went back to the old imploded house for more cleanup and I found this gem among my bedroom things. It's from 1998 (so I was 7 or 8 depending the time of year) and a bunch of little kid Kat drawings of Vash and Sailor Moon and Yu Yu Hakusho LITTERED THE ENTIRE BOOK. There was also a significant amount of Yu-Gi-Oh and a few other ones later dated, like naruto and some made up comics I wrote.
I also found my Connecticon pass from 2008 among a shit ton of photos which I have to make a separate post about with pictures because I found some crazy amazing things relating to my boyfriend from 2008...FUCKING 5 YEARS AGO before we even remotely knew about the others existence. Destiny I tell you. It's freaky.
Anyway tomorrow I work at 1 and I should probably head to bed now if I want to be in tip top shape to go to work and die from christmas related materials ugh. Goodnight world!! Updates varied, but definitely gonna post about Autumn Festival this weekend~
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