Friday 7.30.2013 updates

Literally how we spent our night. I wanted to play Luigi's mansion so badly these past few days so we started a new Save File. 

ramble

are you fucking kidding me. this is under the last three days post after I posted my 3 comics in total. Art gets you places I guess.

Literally this is the only thing that has given me confidence in my art lately. I've been really upset that I'm not working at a studio. I want to be able to make art and make good money at it. I guess tumblr is a good place to start even if it's just me dicking around doing nothing. This is my only motivation aside from my own drive. Every time someone likes something I've done I need to keep going. This post is a reminder to myself that I can do things people like. Something that took me 5 seconds to create had 34 people like it enough to try and keep a track on my blog. I love it. I love them and I love art and I love this. I'm still so upset but this has helped. Even if I had only received 1, it would have helped. I'm sad and happy at the same time because I'm not where I want to be but I know there are people out there who believe in me and thats all that matters.

Logging on tonight has made my day.

Waterfire

On Saturday, my family and I went to a Providence festival known as Waterfire~

dancing chefs!! lol

MINI GOLFING

Cleanliness Drabble

I'm not an extraordinarily neat person. But in high school I was flat out disastrously messy. My room looked like a bomb went off in it. My entire house does now anyway, because not only was I messy, but my entire family (with the exception of my saint-like younger brother) was too. 

After living in my own apartment by myself for 1.5 years and various other apartments/dorm room for the other 3, I've learned how to maintain a certain level of neatness. The problem is, if something is already messy then it's difficult for me to clean the mess already made and instead I just add to it because it's already there.

I came home and keep in mind, it took 4 years for me to become neat and pretty OCD about it too. I come home to a family who is once again, very messy. I almost have a conniption every day. My room was terrible, left in the disastrous state I had it in high school. 

Fast forward post college to let's say...now. Currently my room NOW looks like World War 3 erupted and only took place within this 24x18 foot space. 

I'm very, very overwhelmed but I need to clean this room within the next 3 days. How do I do it? Everytime I've tried I'd been distracted or so overwhelmed with the fact that even an hour of cleaning looks like nothing has changed that I give up.

I still have boxes upon boxes of my college and apartment things: furniture, clothes, lamps, my TV etc. and it seems like the amount of useless stuff is never ending. I need to minimize the entirety of my things into less than 5 suitcases. (this includes lamps and dishware etc) for moving out. How do I do it? The feat seems impossible

Anyway, just thought I'd rant. I really just want to help my family get the house in order and together. I hate messiness now. I can't stand it. I can't have anyone over my house in the state it's in now but no one will do anything about it so it's rather overwhelming.

It's 12:40am right now and I'm going to spend the next 3 hours cleaning my room to the best of my ability. Lucky for me, tumblr is down so I can't get too distracted. UGH

Gifts from NYC

Just wanted to say thanks again to ラリー·バートfor purchasing this gift in japan for me. Thank you for thinking of me while you were visiting there!  It was great practice for reading as well XD let's travel to Osaka soon!! 

ありがとうございました!

この本が好きですよ

gym time

Today we went to the gym and died. Today was shoulders calves and abs and I could barely do any! Since that's my weakest day, Louis beat me at everything weight wise. I felt calves were the hardest.

Cardio was great but I got a side stitch :(

I kept taking pictures of Louis because he was super into it when he was on the machines. 240 pounds on calves compared to my measly 135 (which I could barely do).

I think I might take some pictures of myself doing certain exercises for reference and to post a guide and How To on here.

We finished after the crunch machine because Louis felt a twinge in his spine so we just cardio-ed again on the bikes instead of treadmills and headed home with food so I could go back to work. 

Before then I showed him the rest of my backyard which is about 1.8 acres of grass and trees and showed him the old abandoned chicken coops and the fire pit!!! 

Anyway, off to work but I really wanted to post that picture because its cute and Louis will probably hate me for it LOL

TANDEM BIKING

This Saturday my family and I went to Cape Cod for the weekend. Considering family stuff involves a lot of sitting around or yard work I decided to bring Louis and go adventuring. I really wanted to take him tandem biking because he had never done it before and the one time I did it I had a ton of fun.

We drove down Friday night and ended up talking until 3am which we hadn't done in a while. We talked a lot about style and influences and taboo stuff like drugs and what I've done and what I'd do again and what we would do together if we ended up in that scenario and vice versa and piercings and how he liked industrials and those spiral piercings and how if he got one that I'd get one too and about video games and cosplay and all the different cosplays he looked forward to and how he would make a good Haru but he wanted to keep his hair long etc and also personal things we needed to address together. It was just generally nice.

Since we stayed over Friday night, I made blueberry pancakes in the morning and lounged around playing Super Mario Sunshine. We set out around 1 and got some pizza at Louis's request and then approached the bike shop. The staff was pretty surprised I wanted the tandem bike and seemed pleased about it. He brought a giant red tandem bike around the front. I paid for it and we were off. Louis seemed kind of embarrassed about it but warmed up to it quickly, hopping on and riding it around the parking lot in front of the canal.

It did look kinda goofy, but look at him go LOL

After a couple tries in the beginning we finally got the hang of balancing on a two person bike and off we went!! The whole canal is about 7 miles long. It was an absolutely beautiful day with very little wind and a nice breeze as we rode along the canal.

Unfortunately the tandem bike was a little tilted in the back so riding in the rear first was a little uncomfortable. We kind of leaned to the right and it felt like we were gonna just speed right into the river. It took us about an hour to bike the whole 7 miles down which wasn't bad at all. We stopped twice to rest and once to get water. But once we made it we went out onto the rocks and found somewhere to sit.

We sat down and drank a ton of water and gatorade and started eating the lunches we packed. We had made ballin' sandwiches right before we left and ate in the sunshine. It was such a nice day out, not too hot and not to chilly and we watched a lot of people fish in the canal. Behind Louis in the picture is the Atlantic Ocean. I'm sad we didn't have time to walk along the coast a bit but we had to have the bike returned by 4:30. So after a nice long lunch and a few billion selfies and pictures of each other, we headed back out. 

This time the ride was a lot easier. We biked the whole seven miles in one shot without stopping, this time I was riding up front. Louis was chillin in the back and a lot of passersby thought the sight was pretty amusing. A ton of little kids became really excited at the site of a two person bike and pointed and shouted and pulled their parents to look or check it out. One kid specifically yelling "MOM LOOK IT'S A TWOFER" with a lisp was the cutest thing.

NEW YORK CITY

ok actually creating NYC post in entirety. PLEASE STAND BY LMAO. will save and publish in updates so i dont lose data

Okay so I arrived in NYC around 3pm and waited around for a bit lost in Port Authority. Out of nowhere I saw Hiroki and almost died because it had been so long. After a million 久しぶり’ｓ (essentially: "long time, no see") we went back to the hotel and I changed and we explored the city.

It was cloudy and immediately started downpouring which was terrible and awesome at the same time. We didn't have umbrellas so we literally just walked around soaked and my hair was a massive poof once we were in Times Square. 

We ended up going to the M&M's store too which was incredibly big. Towers upon towers of candy and I mentioned that M&M's mini version were my favorites so he got me a bag. What a sweetheart!

We explored Times Square and Manhattan and went all over the place. Here's the inside of Trump Tower, a neat fountain! It had shops inside so we went into Nike and Adidas!! We walked everywhere, my feet hurt so much ;^;

after being heavily rained on and gross LOL

Night time Times Square.

We ended up at the Disney Store and looked around at all the things. I tried to find Cheshire Cat themed things but all I saw was a mug. The inside was incredible though! Very open and fun! After more exploring, we decided to eat yakiniku and go to a restaurant called Gyu-kaku. It was SO delicious. I love Japanese food as is but Hiroki had me try some things I had never tasted before. The interior was nicely decorated. Hiroki bought me the dinner and it was very nice of him, I can't imagine what the bill must've been because he kept ordering food continuously and getting us drinks.

mini appreciation post and random stuff

JESUS H. CHRIST.

Honestly I'm so happy I received so much positive feedback on something that was literally only for kicks and giggles. Thank you so much everyone. You're kind words and messages make me feel amazing and I love it.

When I get selfies reblogged it's a huge compliment and I know it's weird to write a post about but my confidence which was fine before is through the roof now because of this. 

Speaking of cosplay, I'd figure that I want to do really simple ones for a while with an extremely complicated one for Otakon and Comic Con next year. Because everyone I want to go with me will be out of school...well GRADUATED and working, we can make this happen.

For simple ones I'm definitely considering Tifa. I want to do Tifa and Zack with Louis and have my brother be Cid or something. 

I already listed couple cosplays I want to do on tumblr, but for singular, definitely Lust, Eren Jaeger, Ivy from Soul Caliber, Poison Ivy (again, refitting my last outfit), Jessica Rabbit, Black Cat revamped, Gou Matsuoka (with a group maybe?), revamped Neliel, Morrigan, feminine Gene Starwind, cast of Tenjou Tenge, etc.

Hopefully this will be my lineup for the year.

I will be attending 15 cons total so I'm really excited.

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In other non-cosplay but fashion-y news, I ordered a lot of Boy London and am trying not only to get back into the k-hiphop fashion again but also my long lost gyaru passion. I miss being able to be cute one day and try and attempt sexy the next. I can't wait for my birthday though! I have a whole schoolgirl-y boy london, over the knee stockings outfit planned. Cute as fuq.

I talked to my boy and a few friends and I noticed that while mos tof them have a set theme for fashion, a lot have expressed longing to switch it up. I think it's ok to wear whatever the fuck you want, cute or punk or sexy, whatever makes you happy. I know Mary wants to dress more cute, Louis expressed wanting to be classy as fuck (like he dresses everyday) but also like...cool and punkish? I forget exactly what he wanted but they both mentioned that they feel like they can't just attempt it without whiplash from others. I've been slowly persuading Louis to wear Supras more often and Mary to wear bows and slowly they're both starting to incorporate it. (Louis is harder to persuade in the fashion department LOL, I think he's waiting for his ponytail to grow out before busting out the Supras, Mary will only wear bows around me but I got a text today with a picture of her in the white bow I made LOL so proud ;^;)

It's really upsetting that people take the opinions of others so personally. I think it can be disheartening but at the same time, if you express confidence in what you wear and what you look like, eventually it won't matter because you, yourself will be happy. 

METEOR SHOWER

I'm sorry I'm so terrible about updating. I just really like uploading pictures and I don't have the SD card for my phone so I have to email them which is super tedious.

Anyway I had literally the most romantic night last night during the meteor shower and I wish I could relive it over and over and over.

once again, using the cut for anyone who doesn't wanna read sappy shit

NEW YORK CITY TRIP

The highlight of NYC summed up in a photo. Singing Screaming KURENAI by X JAPAN at karaoke.

Gonna upload more pictures as the night goes on. Just gotta filter them out and upload them. Please stand by!! ^_^

NYC MEETUP AND 3 MONTH ANNIVERSARY MUSH

TOMORROW IS THE DAY I MEET UP WITH HIROKI, LITERALLY MY BEST FRIEND AND THE MAN I'M PLATONICALLY IN LOVE WITH AND MY BACK UP HUSBAND IF NEITHER OF US ARE MARRIED BY 26.

Hiroki was a college transfer student at my university during my Sophomore year and following a lot of shit, he became my closest friend. For a while we had crushes on each other because we were SO close (despite him not physically being my type) but it faded into mutual respect and now we're both in committed relationships but still joke around like a married couple. I'll be staying with him for three days and we're going to adventure all over the city. I'm so excited.

The subject of joint tattoos came up too but I don't know if I'm entirely ready. I always plan these things out a million years in advance and I kind of wanted my first tattoo to be the one I had planned for a while but this kid means the world to me so I might go through with it if its a reasonable cost. Definitely getting more piercings if I don;t though! No body ones, probably just ears still. Trying to fill them up before moving elsewhere.
Honestly not even sure if I want my belly or collarbones pierced anymore. Kind of getting over that whole scene and I'm really lazy during the healing process when it comes to rings and stuff and they're easy to pull out whereas with tattoos, you can't exactly rip one out accidentally LOL.

Anyway, yes, it's going to be great, and whats better is that it will be giving me a chance to brush up on my Japanese AND Korean considering that's the only language that will be spoken between me and Hiroki and the others I'll be meeting up with. No English for the next three days is intimidating though.

~~~~~WARNING: GROSS LOVEY STUFF AFTER THE "READ MORE": AVERT EYES~~~~~~~~~

Gonna make a cut for some of my Louis posts because it can be too mushy but I need to write it out. For daily hangout, there won't be cuts all the time. In this case, it's a bunch of feels because of the date. Just for my HS buds or tumblr followers who read this and don't wanna see all the love crap LOL

boredboredbored

Due to some misunderstandings, I wasn't able to go to CT tonight. I didn't have a huge desire to go either because I feel like I would just get in the way of bro time tomorrow, but I guess I didn't realize how lonely it would be without much contact.

I'm drawing again, lots of quick practice sketches that are kind of shitty, but it helps the creativity. I'll be starting a full illustration or digital painting tomorrow. It's been too long.

I guess I'm going to watch Garden of Words tonight. I wanted to watch it after Sherlock but the visuals are just too appealing and it seems like a bittersweet movie. If not, then I guess I'll catch up in Orange is the New Black or rewatch Tekkonkinkreet. -groans- boredom is worse than death.

Garden of Words clip

So beautiful.

I actually tried to get into Welcome to Night Vale but it is rather strange. Reminds me of an audio book in the form of announcements. It took a while to get into but it's actually not to bad.

New episodes of Free! coming out tomorrow and gonna rewatch the fuck out of SNK. I'm such a sucker for tumblr trends but even when it was just known as "swimming anime" and was a 30 second preview I watched the fuck out of it~ I want to make Haru's swimwear so badly, perhaps that'll be a nice project for tomorrow as well since I'm stuck inside for the day!!

Hangout Posts Again

Last night, around 10pm I went to Louis's. At this point I might as well skip asking permission and just ask forgiveness if my family is mad about it because it felt like I hadn't seen him in ages and I wasn't able to visit him over the weekend. I should be able to see him whenever as is, but situation............yeah. As soon as he was out of work he called and I drove, arriving pretty late. I looked ridiculous because I hadn't done laundry and all I could find was a black pleated skirt and a white BigBang shirt Cheleen gave me and the first shoes I found were high tops so once I rolled up the T-shirt sleeves I looked like I was straight out of street fighter.

We bummed around for a bit and then he reminded me he bought some things from an Asian Market he was waiting for me for.

Holy fuck it was so delicious

More pix under the cut----->

Moving and TMI LADY STUFF

I think I'll be moving out soon. I'm trying to get set up outside of this house but I need a financial miracle.

I told a bed time story last night. It turned out hilariously because I came up with it off the top of my head but it led me to start thinking of illustrating them, even though they're so crazy. It's good practice~

Like Axe Cop or something. I just need a something solid to commit to for drawing aside from random doodles.

Tomorrow I have an appointment for nexplanon. Since they couldn't do it before they'll be consulting me tomorrow.

It's possible they'll perform the surgery so I kind of want to get it on tape so others interested in it can understand the procedure. I'm very anxious about being awake when my arm is sliced open but its worth not being pregnant for a long time. 

Not that I ever was pregnant LOL no thank you

Nexplanon explanation, TMI lady-related health stuff and moving info after the read more:

Judgements

I have to admit that I am very intimidated by people who I look up to.

For example, I have a lot of respect for my friend Ally who I haven't talked to in a while. But I am intimidated by her because I think she is very cool and has a very level head on her shoulders. She's stylish and doesn't give a shit about what others think and I think it's very admirable. She handles so many things I wouldn't be able to handle well and I look up to her a great deal. Oftentimes I get intimidated by how cool she is.

I am intimidated by Cheleen because she has already been to Korea for a year and I'm afraid she will judge me for not speaking it as well as her or not knowing as much about anything. :( Same goes with Brendan. I respect them both. I want them to respect me the same way.

If I respect people, I want them to like me and it's been stressing me out. I've been so happy lately and I've been over-analyzing everything and thinking that people who I love are looking at me differently or people who I want to like me (like Brendan, Cheleen, Ally, friends and family of Louis etc) are judging me hardcore based on internet presence and appearance.

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Tuesday-Friday

Okay so here is the long awaited long post~ (currently writing...)

Tuesday I slept over in Providence because I was travveling to CT the next morning so I could chill with the grandparents. Unfortunately we overslept and ended up arriving at around 2pm. Louis's mom was picking up his grandfather from an appointment but it ended up taking 4 hours to complete. I had wanted to go shopping desperately to prepare for my NYC trip so I was disappointed because he had ended up having to wait around. However, dinner was spectacular.

Louis's mom and his grandmother had made noodles and bamboo and a spinach dish which were glorious and taro and red bean buns (which I devoured). They also made a good amount of ~*~*~LOBSTER~*~*~ aka my favorite seafood ever and I had about 4 claws of them. So delicious!
We had only planned on staying a short while but we ended up stuck there repairing his grandmothers computer. A simple fix really, but took some time over thinking things to actually see the solution.

We left and decided to walk around Mohegan Sun.

I  had never been inside and it was pretty nice! They had this weird swirly LED thing and a light up waterfall. We got ice cream and then I headed back home.

Wednesday~ After the jump break "Read more link"

Using the "read more" links now so it'll be easier for me to scroll through.