Moving and TMI LADY STUFF

I think I'll be moving out soon. I'm trying to get set up outside of this house but I need a financial miracle.

I told a bed time story last night. It turned out hilariously because I came up with it off the top of my head but it led me to start thinking of illustrating them, even though they're so crazy. It's good practice~

Like Axe Cop or something. I just need a something solid to commit to for drawing aside from random doodles.

Tomorrow I have an appointment for nexplanon. Since they couldn't do it before they'll be consulting me tomorrow.

It's possible they'll perform the surgery so I kind of want to get it on tape so others interested in it can understand the procedure. I'm very anxious about being awake when my arm is sliced open but its worth not being pregnant for a long time. 

Not that I ever was pregnant LOL no thank you

Nexplanon explanation, TMI lady-related health stuff and moving info after the read more:

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For those who don't know or are interested, Nexplanon is the most efficient form of birth control and it's an implant into your arm. The bc I'm on currently is effective but taking a pill everyday is difficult for me because I'm always doing something and despite setting alarms, I will forget to take them or take them way later than I am supposed to. Unfortunately, I'm extremely paranoid when it comes to that sort of thing. I have a period maybe once a year. Before last month it had been last October. While I'm thankful for that, (although when I do get them, they're horrendous for 2-3 days before it stops) it also means I get scared easily into thinking I'm pregnant. I even tend to think this when I'm not sexually active though so most of the time it's pure paranoia.

Nexplanon effects mean I'll probably not get another period for the three years that it's effective. I'm very much okay with that but also nervous about after effects when coming off of it as well as the process.

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So anyway, let's talk about moving. A couple things happened at home and it wasn't a very happy setting but it was a very good indicator that I need to get out of the house. I was mildly mad at Louis because he told his mother and grandmother about my situation which I wanted to keep on the DL and quiet but it is what it is and they have been extremely supportive according to Louis. Needless to say, they suggested to him that I consider NYC or SF apartment, which we initially planned. Louis wanted to take his sisters apartment in NYC when she moves out next year and we'd split rent, which sounds really reasonable.

But the problem is that it's next year.

He suggested after the weekend happenings that I move in with him (again - because he's been actively suggesting it for a while now anyway) but I still have a lot of problems with that plan. Aside from spacial issues, living with someone is far different than just seeing them and I really enjoy my personal space. I think tension could arise from being in close proximity during a time of a lot of stress and I think it's too premature to make that action. However, knowing that I have a safe haven means a lot to me. I'm still hunting for cheap rent and a cheap vehicle (my other car is cosigned and I can't cheat my brother out of rides by takin' off)

but I'm also pressed for time so it may end up that I need to stay in providence for a bit...

...or couch hop ugh.

My biggest hope is that I can keep to myself and save up enough in this short period of time and sell everything I don't need so I can just rent a small room and be a swaggin' lone wolf. Maybe some things will sort themselves out somehow.